"I have not what I call a "fascination" as much as I would call an Innate downright gut wrenching fear of zombies. I had never had a problem with death or reanimation of any kind until i was close to 30. I worked in nursing homes for most of my life before then. I took care of the dead before lunch. I washed, redressed and prepared them for the funeral home to pick them up. I saw nothing to fear in these people I had loved and cared for.
Things changed on January 6, 2004. I and my husband had gotten into some trouble with the police (yes, issues with drugs), and were having a hard go at life. We were both clean by then, gerting our lives back together. However, my nephew had stolen checks and forged them to get money out of our account-2 weeks before Christmas. We had given him a chance and told him to come by and repay us and we wouldn't press charges against him. It had snowed that day and was bitter cold. My husband had taken some items to the pawn shop just so we could pay some bills that were late. My newphew showed up while he was gone and told me that he had our money, but wanted to wait until my husband got home to talk and give it to him.
When my husband came home, all seemed ok. The two were talking in the dining room, I later heard shots fired in the dining room. He shot him, and I watched him die. And I thought I was next. I was held at gunpoint for hours, left to sit next to his dead body. knowing he would wake up and take me with him. That is when the fear set in. I can't sleep at night now. Only during the day. And so I wait. For them to come and take me. To make my death as painful and horrible as can be for living-when he died.
Now what do I do? Help me please."

"Thanks for all your responses. I have been diagnosed with PTSD, but have also been told there are issues other than that which pertain to my zombie phobia. I have been to a normal physician, therapist and psychiatrist. I have been prescribed many meds and taken off as many. I was more giving you some of the background for my phobia as to not come off as a flake or nutcase.
I am glad there are as many caring people out there as yourselves to try to help me out with my problem. I am actually to the point I was just wanting a take on what other normal folk may do to ease their fears-as I had not been able to have a rational thought about normalcy in such a long time. It has gotten to the point I am at what the therapist says is beginning stages of agoraphobia. I haven't worked, don't go outside much unless absolutely necessary, try not to answer the phone (or at least screen my calls very suspiciously) and have become socially inept. My only consolation in this whole issue is the internet. I have quite clearly come to the conclusion that zombies cannot type nor make a coherent phrase while browsing the web. However, there has been some comfort knowing there really are PEOPLE out there, somewhere.
I must also commend you for not making light of my situation, nor blowing me off as some deranged fruit. Any and all suggestions will be read, considered and very much appreciated. Thanks.
~Amy"

"Oh, and I did forget to tell you people out there. As far as the psychology goes? I have an Associate's Degree in Abnormal Psych. I am also a certified EMT and CMA/CNA. I worked for a transformer company doing winding, welding (certified), stacking sheet metal, testing the KVAs and as a maintenance mechanic. I have worked in small engine workshops. Had my hunting license by the time I was 11 and USED to be a good shot. I recently lost my right eye so the depth perception isn't what it used to be. I have handled small hand guns for personal protection but have also handled semi and fully automatic weapons. This includes various SKS (german and japanese) with and w/o bayonets modified with a 70 round banana clip. I have also had the opportunity to shoot one of those fancy desert eagles-I was not impressed. I am not TOTALLY defenseless, just morbidly fearful.
Thought I would give you a little more FYI on me. "

"sucidal or homicidal the fear of death is something that many if not all people fear the point is if yr sucidal then get help from a doctor or get pills from a doctor

if yr homicidal well I don't know how to help u maybe someone else can help"